escape from ordinary...

Im laying in bed this morning listening to my Matt Kearney pandora radio station just chillin out max and relaxin all cool, because I have to work tonight...sigh... I have a baby that I am in love with there that makes me want to go just to snuggle but the chaos is getting exausting. We have around 30 babies and far too few nurses to take care of them. Not only do we have this many munchkins but they are very sick munchkins and very small, most of them. "High acuity" as we call it in the ICU. But that makes for 3 baby assignments instead of 2 babies each shift and that just plain wears you out. The last few weeks I have had 3 busy sick babes to care for and its shaking things up for me but it doesn't feel like enough.

I'm so sick of the ordinary. I feel like it goes sleep, get up, go to work at my part time job, eat, have a crafternoon, workout, wait for Taylor to get home from work, kiss him goodbye as he goes to class, wait for him to get home from class, bed....
Other days, it gets shaken up by sleep, get up, eat, have a crafternoon, clean, workout, wait for Taylor to get home from work, go to work myself, come home, sleep, wake up, work, sleep, wake up, work...

I know this is how most of the world is and that the other part of it would kill to have not one but 2 good paying jobs to support their family (trust me I am so thankful) It just feels so....REGULAR .

(at the Tulsa aquarium)

I remember as a little kid having amazing adventures, even in college it was so much more exciting. Something new each day, like going to theemporia zoo or a fun dinner out or going to the park, painting pottery at the store, playgrounds, mini golf. I just feel like thats gone. Don't get me wrong, it is so nice to hang out on the couch or in bed at almost 9am on a wednesday but I just want a change. I love my job(s), my life, my husband and I am so proud he is getting his degree and busting his butt working full time and full load of classes this semester but it means I rarely see him and that means my best friend and adventure buddy is all tied up in responsibility. NOT FUN. We have the day together and while he is relaxing in the shower i'm sitting here thinking about what we can do that's fun today to have my reality crushed by the fact that he emerged to remind me that laundry and cleaning parties and studying for his test and my nap before work needs to be accomplished. No time for adventures today it seems.

What can I do to take 60 minutes of time we have together each day and make it fun, make life fun? I want him to enjoy our life as much as I do, I want him to be able to unwind and to unwind with me. To forget about the bills, work, school, schedules ect for a few minutes and go laugh....with me.

I'm not sure if this longing is just part of what is lost with the title, adult, but I refuse to let myself be okay with it. I refuse to think that you have to have children to go to the park, or play a game or have an adventure, they're a great excuse but I want that for the inner child in me as well. I need to shake it up. Any suggestions are greatly appreciated! But, until then, my husband is calling...laundry and cleaning needs to be done. :(